getting back into the art groove! so thats good. whats bad is that my grandma's dementia is getting worse... so. fun! i need to see her more often but i just feel depressed every time i do. i feel selfish but i cant afford to let my mental health deteriorate any more than it already has. fun

not a lot has happened aside from my monumental tomodachi life hyperfix. im super burnt out on art so thats... literally all ive been doing. mix in some occasional roblox but its mostly just tomodachi life.

i saw the mario movie yesterday though!!! so that was really cool! no spoilers but i enjoyed it a lot despite not being a big mario fan.

because i cannot go 5 minutes without having a huge problem or mental health crisis, god has sent down yet another problem for lil ol me. ive moved past my OCD thing of emetophobia but now i have a fear of swallowing bc. why? idk. i keep feeling like im gonna choke literally every time i eat and the doctor ruled out anything physical so im just fucked i guess. i need to get back in therapy.

i've been better, but i've also been worse, so count your blessings, i suppose.

today was a pretty good day! i finally found some books i was looking for to return to the library after like 300 years of searching. today is the second day in the row ive been medicated for my adhd and i still cant really tell if its made a difference or if its just placebo...

im in burnout mode so ive just been playing a lot of tomdodachi life. i might make a tomodachi log page in the [INSANITY] section. ive pretty much just been playing tomodachi life, roblox, and cleaning my room. it feels weird to not be constantly drawing, but i deserve a break.

i feel better after cleaning my room but im kind of mad this is my problem in the first place. my mom has a hoarding issue and has chucked her shit in my room and refused to throw out anything for about like. 15 years now. ive got 15 years worth of bullshit in my room that i want gone. half of this shit isnt even MINE but its my problem bc my mom wont do it because shes the one hoarding and my dad wont do it bc its not his problem. fair enough but... wow.

in less agonizing news!!! I GOT THE BLUE FIGURE I PUT MYSELF IN DEBT FOR!! YIPPEE!!!